Lisa Ray: Being known as a sex symbol at the age of 16 haunted me | Bollywood Life

Lisa Ray says she does not like being boxed into a certain identity and this is why being known as a sex symbol at the age of 16 still haunts her.

The actor, who released her memoir “Close to the Bone”, hopes people will understand her better after reading about her journey.

“I hate to be labelled and put into boxes but I had to deal with it since a young age because I was a sex symbol at the age of 16. It was completely unanticipated.

“To suddenly become this figure for an entire nation and on top of that, to look much older, that has haunted me my entire life up until now,” she told reporters.

The model-actor, who overcame multiple myeloma, a cancer of the white blood cells, said the book should not be read just as a cancer memoir because it gives a glimpse into her journey right from the beginning of her fame.

“A lot of people will understand how I have this ambivalent relationship with my career, how I am an accidental actress, how I always had one foot in and one foot out of it and how I believe that I have been underestimated only because of the way I look. Although, I don’t believe they shouldn’t be at odds with each other.”

The Indo-Candian actor, 47, said while at the peak of her career, she was grappling through a personal tragedy as her mother had met with an accident, leaving her wheelchair-bound.

“I understood at a very young age – I was 16 then – that all the aspects that you call success — name, fame and money — they don’t solve the questions of the soul.

“So, my ambitions became different. My goal wasn’t to become famous. That explains a lot of my choices, all the projects I said no to because I really understood that my answers were not waiting at the end of it.”

Lisa, who featured in films like “Water” and “Kasoor”, said a part of her would have been “extinguished” by “conforming to mainstream standards.

The actor said “Close to the Bone”, published by Harper Collins, may have begun as a starting point to talk about her disease but it gave her a chance to talk about her life.

“I do cover my cancer experiences but that comes much later. Having said that, cancer was the launching pad for writing this memoir because initially, that’s why I was approached to write this…

“When I sat down and thought about it, I realised that I couldn’t write about my disease in isolation from the rest of my life because everything is connected with what came before.”

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